I am single again:

I think that is precisely what I want since the start of the relationship. Dun ask me what happen. dun feel like talking about it.

Was a bit upset this morning but I am happy again:

Last week, i went for my pre-employment medical checkup. the laboratory nurse asked me if I was thalassemia. I was like what the hell is that? Never hear of it before. then I had period also. They say maybe due to that. Ask me to come back for checkup.

I went for the blood test again. They asked me the same question again. Then went to see the doctor. She explained to me my condition that my body cannot produce enough red blood cells with the nutrients I eat. She said it was anaemia (i think i spell wrongly). nvm. I was like okay. But she says it could be hereditary. I was like what the hell? i never heard of anything like that before in my case. Then she suggested further checkup. Call my new employer if they are willing to pay. Then employer asked me to pay first and check with them later when i start work. sigh...

The only reason why I will have anaemia is coz I dun eat any red meat like beef, mutton, pork or anything that nourish blood. I eats lots of instant noodles, bread, and a lot of useless things. hehe, I can imagine why i kena that. The price of dieting is huge. If given a choice again, I will not DIET. I will exercise. I already have gastric problem. Now anaemic. sigh... But anyway, I already anticipate this so i was calm and not worried at all.

I am happy again:

I was so stressed yesterday. I went to get OSIM i-100 eye massager. It costs about SGD58. Put it on for 5 mins yesterday. It relieves me of my stress. coz When I am stressed I will frown a lot. No good coz it will create a lot more wrinkles. I think I will bring my massager to my new workplace. I will put it on when i am super stressed for 5 mins to reduce my tension. haha.

I am having cold for 2 days. sigh.. I will see a doctor soon. I still need to go for urine test, blood test, and x -ray for pre-employment health screening.

When a home is not a home anymore:

The following blog is a write-up on how I spend my last few years. Can u imagine yr parents always quarrelling? What is worse is they come to u and ask you to take sides and judge who is right or wrong? then having a bro who has mental problems and u have to do so much financially, mentally, physically to put his life right again. But it just takes some fucking lousy friends and gals to screw up his life again.

Can u imagine a brother that tells u that u are not his blood sister just because he feels that he is very good looking and I am ugly?? Can u imagine spending 1 K plus helping him to pay debts and he dun appreciate? Then stupid bro tells all his frens and relatives that u earn a lot and it is only right that he spends yr money? Can u imagine all these? that's not all.

How about someone who tune the radio or tv to the loudest volume in throughout the night depriving you of sleep? Someone who shout at you or scold you when U just ask a simple question: Are u going to use bathroom? If no, i will go and bathe. Someone who likes to vent his anger by throwing stuffs around especially glass, damage wardrobe and u have to pick up all the pieces.

Can u imagine telling yr mum the solution to the problem and she turns back and tell you her son is fine and not having a problem. If like that, still not considered that he is going crazy. I dunno what. what he needs is medication not leaving him alone. Putting him back to IMH for treatment is the best way out but yr mum refuses to listen.

I had enough of all these craps. I am MOVING out. I cannot take it anymore. I will break down eventually if things continue on. sigh......

Irony:

2 months ago I applied for a couple of jobs. Only 2 called me up for interviews. One is Commercial Affairs Department (CAD) as a Commercial Affairs Officer and the other is Spring Singapore as a Senior Officer - Retail. Initially, I wanted the CAD job very much. I went for one interview and that interview I took so much pains to prepare for it. All out to impress the director and deputy director. That 10 mins is the longest 10 mins I have ever sit in an interview. I am someone who can handle interviews super well but that one stress man. Super interrogative. For that 10 mins, i felt like I am a criminal. I am very confident I will get the job. The other I just go for two rounds of interviews. I just be myself and not trying hard enough. The next day after the second round of interview I got the job. shocking. CAD called me last night. sigh... if only they call me earlier. I accepted Spring Singapore's job.

I did some analysis and forecasting into my future with each job. Let me tell you the results:

1. CAD

If I take up that job, all my friends will shun me coz i will be investigating frauds and so on. I will have to distance myself from people coz I am not allowed to say anything coz watever I say about my job I will get into trouble like being charged for insider trading. I will be very interrogative coz I need to be coz being an investigator it is my job. Imagine me telling my bf or husband, "Where u go today? Dun lie! XX saw you with some gal. U are found guilty and shall be sentenced to a punishment of YY". haha. I will die. i am so so talkative. I will die man coz I cannot say anything bout work. If people ask me about my job, what u do? I am a CAO. Investigate fraud loh. how you investigate. I will have to say NO comments due to confidentiality thingy. sigh... With so much frauds around, I dun have to go home. Gotta work for 7days. My pigs will be angry, my bf will be angry, and my family will be angry. haha.

Oh ya, companies will hate me when i visit them for investigation.

2. Spring

this is a job most will like me coz my job is to help SME. If I turn up at their office, they will be super nice to me coz I am giving them business opportunities or assistance to further grow their business. The company is a family oriented one and no matter how hard I work I dun have to work 7 days a week. Being someone who is talkative and sociable, I will be able to handle my job very well. I can build up a strong network of contacts. So glad I choose this job. If I intend to leave, I can go to a lot of fields. hehe.