Sigh....

Recently, a guy is chasing after me and I was like thinking why don't i give him a chance and besides i need someone to care and love me. Then I realize that he is so so busy. Has no time for me. sigh.... Why is it that the guys I am with are all so busy? I am jinxed. sigh.... then I told him I wanna give up coz I am not an easy gal to be with. Demanding and emotional plus insecure. three big flaws. ahahaha. I guess I am much better off alone. then I realize i cannot love anyone else anymore. I still love my dream guy until today but I know that we can't be together. I will be happy for him if he finds someone he truly loves. I actually chose to break up with my bf of 2 years then just to give a try to see if i can patch back with him. End up, he convinced me that we are not meant to be together coz he is looking for excitement and to him, I am just a plain boring gal. I was sad when i heard that. Since that, I have been in and out of ST r/s. Wat's the point? Nvm. I am fine. I dun shed any tears over r/s since 2 years ago. Even if i cry, it will be at most 1 night and i will be fine. Life goes on. I still have all my frens and my 2 beloved piggies who love me deeply.