Blog:

Today is a very rare occassion where i start looking back into my blog entries. I realized something that I been through a bit in the past and i forgot what happened then and the emotions that went through. Time really washes away a lot of pain and unhappiness. It is true. Trust me on that.... I will look forward to my future and be happy everyday.

I am terrible

Just a few days ago, I said i like someone but now I dun think so anymore. I am so bloody fickle-minded. Nvm. Sleeping is more impt now.

Happy Little Gal:

I really love my job and wat I am doing. Dun wanna dwell much on my work for u know very soon OSA officials will come knocking at my door. OSA stands for Official Secrets Act. Happy coz I am in love again. Or not really in love. I have a crush on someone. Dun wanna say who yet but definitely not anyone from school. I think I have changed coz the me last time will never fall for such a guy. He is a guy serious at work and responsible. Super nice guy. Family man as in someone who is traditional and cares a lot about family. haha. Anyway, crossing my fingers. Not going to do anything. Maybe signs of me maturing and slowly settling down? Perhaps.

I still like the feeling of being in love. So I dun wanna do anything. I think i am in love coz when he talks to other gals i get awfully jealous. Remember I am a typical scorpio. Ironically, he is a scorpio too and his bday is 3 days after mine. cool. maybe can celebrate bdays together if we end up together. haha.Time to sleep already...

Sigh....

Recently, a guy is chasing after me and I was like thinking why don't i give him a chance and besides i need someone to care and love me. Then I realize that he is so so busy. Has no time for me. sigh.... Why is it that the guys I am with are all so busy? I am jinxed. sigh.... then I told him I wanna give up coz I am not an easy gal to be with. Demanding and emotional plus insecure. three big flaws. ahahaha. I guess I am much better off alone. then I realize i cannot love anyone else anymore. I still love my dream guy until today but I know that we can't be together. I will be happy for him if he finds someone he truly loves. I actually chose to break up with my bf of 2 years then just to give a try to see if i can patch back with him. End up, he convinced me that we are not meant to be together coz he is looking for excitement and to him, I am just a plain boring gal. I was sad when i heard that. Since that, I have been in and out of ST r/s. Wat's the point? Nvm. I am fine. I dun shed any tears over r/s since 2 years ago. Even if i cry, it will be at most 1 night and i will be fine. Life goes on. I still have all my frens and my 2 beloved piggies who love me deeply.

I am back...

After MIAing for 2 months plus, I am finally back. I did a lot of things in these 2 months. I am working in one of the statutory board now. Super busy. i was thinking good. I can enjoy life but who knows I have to work 7 days a week. sigh.... Super overworked.

then at the end of june, one of my uncles passed away. I was pretty upset and devastated coz it was so unexpected. yet I have to work hard. sigh... Life really sucks. After the cremation on Friday, i was told to fly off to KL on Monday, 3 days later. Sigh... I really dun wanna go but I had no choice. I went and it was my first work trip and first time flying on a plane, first time staying alone in a hotel room. I really freaked out when i have to sleep alone coz my colleague refused to share a room with me. sigh.... I left the lights on and tv on whole night.

u know wat happen? the stupid ex who wants to break up wants to patch back. Super idiotic moron. I will definitely now give him another chance. For this 1 year plus, I haven't been serious about love at all. all i need is a companion. tell u more another time.